Currently listening: “Homecoming Queen?” – Kelsea Ballerini & THE ENTIRE ALBUM OF FOLKLORE BY TAYLOR SWIFT (such a mood) Currently watching:The Bold Type Currently playing: Animal Crossing: New Horizons Currently reading:American Gods by Neil Gaimon
Is it weird that I think that the music of cicadas in the summertime is one of the most beautiful sounds to listen to in the world? Because I really do, and honestly it is one of the things keeping me grounded in these high flying times.
Summer is and has always been my safe place. I would much rather be hot than cold. I would much rather have more daylight than more night. I would much rather be licking mint ice cream off my lips than hot cocoa from my chin. That’s not to say I don’t love the cold, or the night or hot cocoa. I do. I really do. But summer has always been special to me. In summer, I have no worries… usually.
This summer is different. It looks like summer, feels hot like summer, and sounds like summer with the cicadas outside but as we all know everything is different. Part of me, which I never thought I would actually feel in my entire life, wants summer to end and the fall to come and by doing that hopefully bring an end to this pandemic. The rest of me though is struggling to stay in the moment and appreciate life for what it is right now. Summer… my favorite season…
So that’s where I’m at.
Continue researching, world building, prewriting, plotting, and outlining my WIP! Check, yes.
Become more interactive on social media! Check. I might have been a little less interactive this month but I was still ON social media so this is a win.
Continue making submissions with my writing! Check! I was actually asked to submit something this month by Radiate Literary, which is a super cool online literary journal promoting young voices. (If you want to check out the poem I wrote here’s the link……. #kthanksbye#awkwardselfpromo).
Continue to do yoga every morning! Checkity-check. Check.
August (the month which might be when my birthday is…) Goals:
Continue researching, world building, prewriting, plotting, and outlining my WIP! I actually started writing the first draft of my WIP of 2020 this month. (I KNOW.) I didn’t even finish world building or outlining or my original intention of planning… BUT the story called to me. So, I started writing.
Become more interactive on social media! My handle is @jaiiiilynn4 for both Insta and Twitter so let’s connect! I’m keeping this goal on here because I definitely need to do better. Even though I still checked them somewhat I have to be more proactive. I’m trying. I promise.
Continue making submissions with my writing! Trying to make this one a habit. I need better time management skills though I feel. This is the goal that honestly falls to the wayside the most.
Be nicer to myself. This one sounds easy but honestly, it might be the hardest goal on this list. I have a tendency to beat myself up pretty badly when I can’t do something I planned to do. I am also the type who constantly assigns blame to myself for things I in no way have any control over. So, this month (my birthday month which is fitting!) I am going to try being kinder to myself and indulge in some self care.
What I Read:
–He’s Just Not That Into You: The No-Excuses Truth to Understanding Guys by Greg Behrendt and Liz Tuccillo. This was so eye opening to read… and brutally honest. This books is meant to give you a major reality check when it comes to dating and guys, and let me tell you it doesn’t disappoint. You will feel a bit naive and, dare I say, stupid after reading it but!!! Not to say also full of hope. With just as many red flags it points out it also uplifts you equally as much. Every chapter ends on a positive note and tells you just how much you are worth finding a good guy, one who is not afraid to show up and be there for you. You’re fabulous, amazing, smart and funny. WE ARE!!!! And we deserve someone who appreciates all of that and doesn’t take us for granted.
What I’ll Be Writing:
Poetry- posted every Wednesday
Living Life vignettes- posted first Friday of the month
Alternate Reality flash fiction collection- posted the last Tuesday of the month
Writing Is Hard|WIP Writing Update- posted in the middle of the month
Snapshot! monthly recap- posted the last day of every month
Announcements- posted as needed
All of my fiction writings are independent of each other andstand alone so no need toreadanyof the previous work to understand. If you want more information about any of the above, you can check out the About page on my site or just click here.
Hey, hey, hey… have you guys heard Taylor’s new album? Like for real Folklore is my life right now. And forevermore…. it’s too real and raw and I’m drowning and swimming and, like, hiding in the woods in a witch hut surrounded by magic and mystery and sadness and hope with ladybugs flying all around me all at the same time…
When this all first started, they said there would be no waiting.
Cracking my knuckles only kills a few seconds so it’s not long before my mind is back on the never ending line in front of me. At least we are all spread far enough apart that I could stretch my arms so far in front of me and still not touch the man with his bowler hat, or kick out my leg enough to never reach the woman and her daughter arguing at my back.
They said it wouldn’t be as bad as this.
Someone coughs and I can’t help it… but I flinch. I’m not the only one either. Between my rumbling stomach, scrunched shoulders, and painful headache I feel like I made a mistake coming. Maybe I could have gone another night without dinner.
They said that by now this would all be over.
In better times, I would have been knee deep in tips from slinging hot burgers and greasy fries. I would have been spending my mornings running on the beach and my nights banging shoulders with my friends. My anxiety wouldn’t be strung as tight as bow, my bills wouldn’t be weighing down my shoulders, and the news wouldn’t be hammering me hour by hour with the bleakness of it all. (Why didn’t we listen? Why didn’t we realize sooner? Are we all that selfish? Throwing a party at what cost? A few thousand lives…) I shift my weight to my other leg, not because I needed to but just because I needed something, anything, to distract me. If only for another few seconds.
This summer was supposed to be the best one yet. Who would have thought it would have been the saddest? The one to ruin every other summer… in our new reality.
Everything happens for a reason. I’ll tell it to myself over and over. Until I believe it. Another distraction to make the time seem less still. Another few seconds to pass by.
I’m sending much love your way Sophie for nominating me for this award!! If you don’t follow Sophie @ Sophie’s Corner, I urge you to do so RIGHT NOW. She is an amazing writer and a wonderful friend to me here in the blogging community!
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Sophie’s Questions for Me!
What are your favorite books of 2020 so far?
I’m reading American Gods right now for the first time and I love it so much that I’m savoring it slowly. It’s like a fine wine and it needs to be taken in sips, lol. I also really loved my re-read of The Great Gatsby that was my first read of the year. Those are the two that jump to the front of my mind off the bat.
2. Where do you write your blog?
Well…. everywhere. I write at work if it’s a busy day but usually somewhere in the sanctity of my home. At my desk or in the living room or in the kitchen. When this pandemic is over though I’m definitely going to try swinging by a coffee shop or the library to mix it up a little!
3. Which type of blog post do you like reading the most?
I love reading poetry. Give me poetry any day and every day. It feeds my soul well.
4. Which type of blog post do you like writing the most?
Haha! Well, poetry because it’s short and sweet and/or packs a punch right to your heart.
5. What book format do you like the most? (e.g. physical book, eBook, audiobook?)
PHYSICAL BOOKS ALL THE WAY! My eyes are so sensitive and I already spend so much time at a computer so when I want to relax I need to feel the pages in my hands, breathe in that book scent and give my eyes a well deserved rest.
6. If you could travel to one place in the world, where would you travel to?
I want to go to London. I’ve always wanted to go there and right now it feels so far away and so out of reach. Literally and metaphorically.
7. Favorite dessert?
8. If you are stranded on an island, and you can choose to keep either your cellphone or a lifetime supply of books, which would you choose? ( Clarification: Your phone has internet and cell reception but you cannot use it to get yourself off the island.)
Lifetime supply of books. (But also I wish I could have the phone to to call my family and friends…. this one is hard….)
9. Which book do you remember most vividly?
Clockwork Angel because I have read that book WAY too many times, and it has given me dramatically skewed interpretations of men.
10. Would you rather eat good food or wear fashionable clothing?
Good food all the wayyyyyyy.
Since I’ve been doing a lot of nominations recently I’ll leave this up to anyone who reads this post and wants to participate!
If you could time travel what period would you travel to?
What song would you not mind playing on repeat for the rest of your life?
What is your favorite musical?
Have you ever eaten a ghost pepper, and would you want to?
Are there some things in life you want but KNOW for a fact you will never get them?
Do you ever feel like life isn’t real sometimes and that we are all dreaming or trapped in a video game? #Meta
Do you believe in love at first sight?
Which Disney princess do you relate to the most?
What is your favorite thing about summer?
If you could meet any athlete who would you pick?
Thanks for reading everyone! What are your answers to the questions I was asked? Let me know! Now I’m heading outside to go enjoy the summer sun!
I’m so grateful and awed that Princess @The Mindful Modus nominated me for the Ideal Inspiration Blogger Award! She is such a sweet, kind person and I look forward to reading all of her posts. They are so creative and give me great ideas for how to live a better life and enjoy my time more! If you’re not following her already GO RIGHT NOW AND FOLLOW HER!
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Great question! That’s like asking which post is my favorite child haha! All of them mean something to me but if I had to pick one right now off the top of my head I would say my poem “Sigh” because it’s just so true to how I feel right now.
2. What’s keeping you busy these days?
So much, too much. I’m going to work, then coming home and writing (or falling asleep at an early hour omg, ever since COVID my sleep schedule has been so wonky!). I’ve also been listening to a lot of music these days. I’ve always listened to music but right now I’m living like my ear buds are a part of my body.
3. What’s something that recently made you happy?
I just finished eating dinner and that made me REALLY happy.
4. What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?
The best compliment I have ever received believe it or not is this “You are doing enough.” I have a tendency to push myself to breaking so to hear that phrase is one of the most calming things for me.
5. If you could teach one subject in school what would it be?
English! Bring on Shakespeare, angsty teenagers and all the great literature I am going to push them into loving!
Since I’ve been doing a lot of nominations recently I’ll leave this up to anyone who reads this post and wants to participate!
What animal would you be in another life?
What color do you detest the most?
What is the most ridiculous thing you would do for money?
Have you ever met someone you only knew for a short period of time but they changed you forever?
I don’t know about you but for me age nine was a very impressionable age. My family life turned upside down right around that time. To compare it to writing, the universe had been foreshadowing and planting plot points for years right up to that pinnacle point in 2004 when my parents’ divorce was finally settled and done. So, of course, when life hands you something ugly we humans immediately want to gravitate towards things that make us happy. Which at that time for me was Pokemon, as I mentioned in the previous post, and then right after that…Sailor Moon.
I loved Sailor Moon.
I would storm home from school just to see if I could try and catch it on Cartoon Network. (I didn’t always find it, mind you, but when I did… let me just say… I was so happy.) I don’t think I comprehended that it was probably on at a specific time because I was a kid and I just wanted to watch it when I wanted to watch it. Everything about the show I loved. The girl power, the heroics, Tuxedo Mask lol… I must have gone through phases for each Sailor Scout. Jupiter initially, then Mercury later on… Venus here and there and Mars from time to time. Sailor Moon herself … believe it or not I did not like at first (I know, right?? How could I not love her??) but now she is such an integral part of my being I don’t know what my younger self was thinking.
I can recall really specific memories from that time period of my childhood. I remember watching the Negaverse attack on a dark snowy night sitting on the floor in the living room while my Great Aunt (now passed) was in the background speaking to my mom. I remember running across the street to my neighbor’s house when her grandchildren were visiting and going to watch Sailor Neptune and Uranus after we played catch in the backyard with Max, my neighbor’s border collie. I remember going to our local video rental store regularly and always renting the Promise of the Rose movie whenever I had a chance…. that all seems like a lifetime ago.
Nowadays, I love each and every one of the Sailor Scouts having read the manga and seen the 90’s anime adaptation too many times to count. Sailor Pluto holds a special place in my heart today. Maybe because of all of the scouts she seems the loneliest to me and I just want to help her and be her friend. If you think about it… she had the loneliest job of all guarding the Space-Time Door…. and isn’t writing also one of the loneliest jobs sometimes too? Like all of us writers at some point are looking to the past or the future, gaging the current state of society, picking up cues from everything all around us and compressing all that and everything into the written word to guide and protect others… like we are all guarding that very same door….
Sorry lost myself there for a second, lol.
My next step into writing was of course to write Sailor Moon fan fiction turning my childhood obsessions into stories at the ripe age of twelve. I was so hardcore I wrote it all by hand in this pink notebook I found lying around. I remember watching the shows on YouTube over and over. Back in those days there was a limit to how long the video could be so one episode of Sailor Moon was broken down into about three or four YouTube videos. After, I made outlines about how I wanted to change the story, and did character analysis’ for each of the scouts and all the new original characters I wanted to add in. I named it Love Bright, Sunlight… and yes I am internally cringing right now.
Needless to say I never finished this story either. True to my track record. On the other hand though, this was another stepping stone to eventually realizing what I wanted to do with my life- become a published author.
Since my last update, life has been hectic. I’ve been working a lot and then coming home and trying to work as hard at my WIP but falling short on doing everything I want to do. I’m still in the pre-writing stage working on world building. Can I just say too- trying to make your own religion is HARD WORK, WOW. I knew it would be hard but due to my overcritical nature this part is taking a long time. It’s all part of the process though (at least that is what I keep telling myself). (You had to want to write a fantasy, didn’t you Jai???) I know, I know. One day all this will pay off. I also spent some time on the main characters this month which was a lot of fun! The Lowell Saga has a lot of characters and character arcs to navigate but I can tell you I can tie it down to seven main characters. Which sounds like a lot, especially when they will all get their own POV sometime down the road in the four books I am planning to stretch out this story into. If I want to narrow it down even further then I guess I can tie it down to at the core three specific characters as the main trio, at least for the first book. Anyway… back to researching interesting marriage ceremonies and racking my brain for weird funeral ideas.
Thanks for hearing me out for my writing update this month! Writing these posts is definitely helping me stay on track and keep working, so I hope if you read this far you got some enjoyment out of this post too.