Writing is Hard | WIP | October 2020 | Catching All Those Falling Stars

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I was fifteen when I started to write regularly. Every summer before school would start in September my mother would take my brother and me to Staples to get our supplies. That year I had an extra notebook that I didn’t need for school and that’s where something else began… I didn’t know it at the time but with that notebook, I would come to hand write short story upon short story… upon short story. It was a three subject spiral notebook, totally normal in every way even down to its ruddy red cover. But that notebook became my secret world.

Since I was still reeling off Final Fantasy VII, I got hooked on the just announced Final Fantasy Versus XIII (now known as FFXV for those who are curious; that is how long ago this was and how long that game was stuck in development hell, but I digress). All that fan fiction took up the first rush of pages, then I dropped back into the Pokemon fandom for a bit, and then Howl’s Moving Castle for a spell and then came Hetalia and Katekyo Hitman Reborn and then Durarara! and Bleach and Fruits Basket and oh so many others. Just typing all those series’ down brings back the rush of memories. Growing up with all those stories manifested from the brilliant minds of so many different creators got me through and helped me make a few close friends to survive high school with. Back then, if it wasn’t already obvious I spent a lot of time in my imagination. Maybe it was inevitable that I would eventually want to be an author. Even though for a long time growing up I didn’t want to become a writer. But that’s a story for a different time. At that time in my life all I needed was a place to vent my feelings and get lost in someplace that wasn’t the real world. Maybe that was why it was so easy to fill that notebook up with words.

It was two years later after starting that notebook that I created my first original character. Not a self insert or someone to fit in some other person’s world. He was mine, all mine. He has survived to this day and believe it or not plays a significant role in my current WIP The Lowell Saga. As you can see I love him dearly. He hasn’t even changed much from his original design. His core personality is still present, and even his name is the same. I would reveal more but he plays a sort of big, influential role and I don’t want to spoil anything for when this book finally sees the light of day.

I am honestly… really proud of myself this month? Again? Wow. I started to wake up a bit earlier before work to get some writing in, like I did last year around this time and so far it has been working. Just a half hour but it is still progress. Little by little. Something is better than nothing. Because one day all those little somethings add up, but you can’t add up nothing. Nothing just creates more nothing.

I find that (if you have been with me from the beginning you already know) I always struggle to finish a first draft. Beginnings are so easy for me. I can write a million beginnings. Middles are okay, I reach them half of the time. The end is something I have never seen. But I will. With this WIP I will. Positive affirmations and manifesting all the wayyyyyyyyy. Especially with it being that special time of year.

Yes NaNoWriMo time is almost upon us and I have decided to participate! Will I set a goal of 50,000 words? Probably not because that is not how I operate, something it took me years to learn. Will I try to write every day and see where it takes me? Probably more along those lines of thinking but I don’t want to lock myself in a box. As we all know, life happens… and we have to account for that. Will I keep hustling away at that first draft? Definitely, 100% yes yes yes. Maybe I’ll make that my goal. Just keep writing.

What I find working for me, which I didn’t do previously, is that I write the scenes that I want to write instead of going in chronological order. My draft may be a mess but it is still a draft and the words are coming and that is better than nothing. Something is always better than nothing. I’m also not getting hung up on making everything perfect the first go round (which is impossible anyway since nothing is perfect, something else I am learning and willing to entrench into my mind) and am leaving blank spaces or gaps where I need to fill in details that I just don’t have right now. I will eventually. But not right now. My Preptober is just building the habit that way I’ll have an easier time once November blows in. I mean I already spent a lot of time researching this year and outlining and planning. So now the implementation is in progress. Write, write, write.

Legit, do any writers know what they are doing? I don’t really, if I am being honest. I’m a very intuitive person and am going with my gut instinct here. Which, thankfully, has never failed me. I know there are a few writers out there that do have an idea (and please drop me a line cause I feel like I’m flailing in the sea out here) but as for the rest of us let’s make this November a memorable one. Let’s make it count. If you have a dream you have to try right? Or it will die with the falling stars…

And I won’t let any stars (or dreams) die on my watch. Not when they could became a beautiful reality.

I want to be a writer. I want to be a writer. I want to be a writer. I’ll say it over and over till I feel it’s true. But I do write. Therefore…

I am a writer. We are all writers, here.

But if I’m being honest some part of me still doesn’t believe it. Not till I finish a first draft at least. I have to do it. I want to do it. I’m going to do it.

We are all going to do it. I believe.

Till next time happy writing!

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9 thoughts on “Writing is Hard | WIP | October 2020 | Catching All Those Falling Stars

    1. I love them too, omg, it’s so interesting to see how other people’s brains work in regard to writing! There are so many ways and paths. That’s part of why I love writing so much too! All the diversity and creativity, gotta let it all FLOWWWW!! Thank you so much!! โค NaNo will be hard but I'm determined ๐Ÿ˜€

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  1. This was such a lovely post to read! I also always struggle with endings, which is why I haven’t finished a draft yet. But just like you, I’m determined to make it happen this year.
    Good luck with your goals, and I can’t wait to see what you come up with this November โค

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  2. First of all, I have to say my hiatus from WP has made me miss keeping up with your posts dearly!

    I love your chattier blogs. ๐Ÿ™‚ And I am extra intrigued and excited each time you share a little of your book and characters with us! Amazing things are in the making. I love your workflow of writing the scenes you’re most excited about, everything builds on everything and I think it will actually help you fill in the gaps more later on!!

    So, so excited for this BOOK omg!
    BTW ditch the saying “I want to be a writer” you ARE a writer. Start speaking your I AM’s โ™ก You’re not alone, everyone here on Earth is just figuring it out as they go. I’m with you!

    sending you love, light & hugs pal xoxoxo โ™ก

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    1. Jenni!! I missed you!! Glad you are back โค Thank you so much for the kind words and support as always. It truly means so much โค โค and yess, you are right!! I AM A WRITER, lol and if I keep working like I do it will all work out ๐Ÿ˜€ Sending out all those positive vibes into the universe haha!! And right back at you, sending you all the love, light and hugs too!! ๐Ÿ˜€

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      1. Of course!! I missed you too!!! :’) โ™ก All the effort you’re putting in will be so worth it, it WILL all work out!!! โ™กโ™กโ™ก

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