Writing is Hard | WIP Update | July 2022 | Different Mindset

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Today I finished reading The Power of Habit by Charles Duhigg. It was a great read, full of a lot of interesting studies on habits and how to change them. I highly recommend it but that is not the reason why I brought it up (or started my July writing update with this paragraph lol). In the book there was mention of a religious figure, and of course the book talked about how he used habits to build up a huge religious society, but there was also a little side note that caught my eye. In that story the religious figure suffered from anxiety and depression, and there was a time that he couldn’t handle doing his services anymore. So he went off the grid for a time. It was just a small part of his story but it struck me all the same.

For so long I have avoided writing (part was due to life circumstances that were out of my control) but the rest I realized stemmed from the overwhelming task of writing a book. Perfectionism is something I’ve struggled with throughout my life. I wanted my story to be perfect but nothing is perfect. Nothing. It is impossible. But I still wanted it anyway. So I put off writing on my story in the few moments in my hectic life I did have. Because the task I set myself was daunting. The perfect book. I became increasingly stressed out whenever faced with the task of working on The Lowell Saga.

The other part of my problem I realized only after I rewatched Kiki’s Delivery Service which I hadn’t seen in its entirety in years. If you know the movie you will know what I mean when I say that in my dream of wanting to be a full time writer I put so much pressure on myself that writing wasn’t fun anymore. I became anxious, sad and I lost the belief in myself that it would ever come true.

As I am writing this post though, again I feel so much better getting all my thoughts out in words. Writing is a part of me even though I am struggling to find my footing with it again. July was a bad month in terms of progress with my story. I am trying to fix that. But the first step is in fixing myself.

Like I said, I haven’t made much (if any) progress on The Lowell Saga.

But I have started to listen to writing podcasts, and I have started to read more articles on writing, and I have surfed YouTube to watch videos of other writers and their routines and I have decided to try to adopt a new way to think. I can’t look at my story as a life or death situation anymore. All the joy of why I started writing in the first place just gets sucked away and I end up sad. So, I am going to start thinking of it less as a job and more as a hobby. That subtle change in thought alone already makes me feel immeasurably better.

Maybe that way it can go back to being something I love and not something I have come to fear.

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(Currently still revising the first draft of TLS…..)

6 thoughts on “Writing is Hard | WIP Update | July 2022 | Different Mindset

  1. I can relate with this, Jai Lynn. Even as someone who’s written for a living for a decade, I’m still learning about the craft, and my latest explorations are in line with your post, in that I want to look at writing from a place of love instead of fear.

    I know that writing is work and there’ll be the grindy side to things, but I also know it’s possible to write with focus on the craft instead of the performance side of things (which makes it that much more fun).

    Anyway, thanks for this post, and wishing you all the best with your journey!

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    1. Thank you for the kind words Stuart! I’m glad my post was able to reach you and you were able to relate. That’s the nice part of being in a community! You are not alone. Sending you the best as well! 🙂

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  2. Hey Jai! Yes, writing can be hard and overwhelming sometimes. Remember, you are not alone. A lot of other writers, myself included, are in the same boat. Keep in mind all the amazing progress you’ve made in your WIP. Make sure you take care of YOU first and don’t be so hard on yourself. Recharge and that creative spirit will return. Sending you positive writing vibes and love always! ❤

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