Writing is Hard | WIP Writing Update | August 2020 | Roxas

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Kingdom Hearts is one of the most beloved video game franchises of all time. Especially to me. Age ten was when this one first fell into my lap. I have always loved video games, and with that love comes a flood of memories. My brother and I opening up a Playstation 2 on Christmas morning together, my brother and I in the following years combining our money so we could buy a GameCube at Toys R Us when that first came out, my brother bringing my Pokemon Sapphire to my Dad’s work and losing my game (and my Skitty which I worked SO HARD to capture!) making me burst into angry tears… but I digress. Video games are something my brother and I have always shared and bonded over, through good times and bad. Kingdom Hearts is part of the good.

It all started when I was invited over to one of my school friends’ house for the first time. Kingdom Hearts was a thing I had known of before but (like Avatar: The Last Airbender when it first came out) I hadn’t originally pursued. My friend said it was good and that we should play, and long story short, I spent that whole play date engrossed in the Destiny Islands.

I remember that it was around the time Kingdom Hearts 2 was coming out. I bought my own copy of the original KH and played and played and played. I got to the Chernabog, legit, right near the final battle and the end of the game but succumbed and ended up starting Kingdom Hearts 2 immediately as soon as I could get my hands on it. That’s when I saw Roxas for the first time.

(ADORABLE *insert gushing & heart eyes here*)

Little to say I never ended up finishing Kingdom Hearts then. So, I’m left with the weird experience of saying I beat Kingdom Hearts 2 first. (Chain of Memories I tried to play too in that time frame but me and those battle controls weren’t jiving…)

I don’t know what it was but as soon as I saw Roxas I loved him. (That is probably as close to love at first sight that I’ll ever get in this lifetime.) The more I played as him and learned about him the more that affection grew and by the end of the prologue of Kingdom Hearts 2… I was devastated. If you’ve ever played the game you’ll know what I mean.

Why am I telling you all this and what does it have to do with my writing journey? Well, that passion of mine birthed into a story. My second attempt at fan fiction, only this time I typed it. Roxas ignited in me a story that I poured hours and hours into, writing way into the wee hours of the night on my old Dell laptop. Minor spoiler alert here but, I put so much effort into that story and would love to show you an awful excerpt but alas it came to a sad conclusion, just like Roxas.

My old Dell ended up crashing and I lost everything.

Including my story.

(moment of silence)

When I die, I pray God will bring that story back to me. Along with all the other little lost things that I’ve lost track of in my life. Like my Mew card, my Pokemon Sapphire game with my Skitty, and that Kingdom Hearts story. It was my first typed story, that along with my Pokemon picture books, and Sailor Moon fanfic notebook I never got to finish.

I guess that’s where I developed this habit of never finishing a story.

The habit I’m determined to break now with my current WIP, The Lowell Saga. I am happy to report that I have started writing! Snippets here and snippets there, but my word count is now on the rise… so progress guys!! I haven’t finished world building yet but I’ve decided to break that down to bits and pieces as I write. I think that’s better than me trying to do all the research in the beginning. That way my imagination can have some fun. Otherwise I know, as in the past, I may lose interest. The further I go with this WIP the more I’m learning about myself. I’ve been outlining a lot this month as well, and narrowing down the plot points I want to hit in this four book saga. It’s honestly…. very exciting.

And these feelings are why I love writing. I love being excited and feeling like yes, yes if this is all I do for the rest of my life I will die happy and fulfilled.

So far this WIP has been in the making for three years. It started as an idea, then research, some writing, afterward letting it simmer for a bit, and now picking it up again in 2020. More inspiration, more researching, and in the present I’m outlining and beginning to write. My process is like a slow burn romance. There’s the interest, and then the simmer as things calm as we get to know each other better, and then more and more kindling (like right where I’m at now) is starting to be thrown into the fire as I pick up on all these little details that I can’t wait to write about. I pray the burn continues this way. I’ll make it so.

That way one day this story will be a wildfire.

Till next time,

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word count: 1,230

“Red Cardinal, Black Feather”

Red cardinal,
black feather,
storm clouds,
sunny weather.

Nerves of steel,
back straight.
They may laugh
but it’s too late.

Red cardinal,
black feather,
broken bones,
red strings sever.

Feelings high,
the rest low.
Queen’s don’t always
dress in gold.

Red cardinal,
black feather,
heart of ice
with a liquid center.

So many
broken bones…
and children laughing,
throwing stones.

Red cardinal,
black feather.
Lopsided crown
never looked better.

She’s too good
for this world.
Straightened rose glasses
from a vision once twirled.

Red cardinal,
black feather.
She decides
to be better.

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©2020 Jai Lynn

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Announcement! So… I Was in a Blackout…

Okay, okay it’s story time guys. So as we all love and know it is now August!!! The dog days of summer, the winning home run, the month where ice cream every day is okay, the cicadas are loud as ever, and we are all chasing that final horizon down the beach where every second is going to be amazing….. okay. So. While that is all normally true and wonderful … 2020 fell out of a Twilight Zone episode.

So on my birthday this past week a tropical storm hit the East Coast of the United States. It was so big and so damaging that many have even compared it to Hurricane Sandy that hit eight years ago in 2012 which at that time was the worst storm to hit the East Coast. The damage done this time was equitable and because of that many people, including myself, lost power. It took five days in the dark of not having internet connection, sweating without air conditioning and almost losing all our food but finally my power is back!! (Also, like, side note… the fact that the storm happened on MY BIRTHDAY is not a sign of bad luck but must REALLY mean I am a tropical storm of a person. That’s how I am spinning it anyhow…)

To those out there who still don’t have power know I’m praying for you. It’s humbling honestly to be without electricity and now I am even more grateful for everything I have.

That being said I missed posting my vignette this month and I am very behind on reading and commenting on a lot of posts. I’m going to do my best to catch up on everything but it might take some time.

In regard to my own blog I’m moving forward with my posting. The next vignette post will be the first Friday of next month, so I’m skipping this month and carrying on as if everything was normal (like, in these weird times that’s a healthy coping mechanism right? lol).

Also I’ve decided to cut the Alternate Reality – Flash Fiction post entirely. I feel like I’ve been stretching myself too thin lately and this is my least popular post. At least for right now. But I will still leave up the posts in case you ever feel like perusing them. In the meantime my poetry and vignettes will be staying strong! As well as any other announcements I may have, my WIP writing updates and my usual monthly Snapshot!

That’s all folks! Hope you are all staying safe and healthy! Sending good vibes your ways!

Till next time,

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“Heartbreak Boy”

Shutters closed,
floors bare,
dark house,
your kingdom of despair.

Halogen lights
watermelon rinds
your real kingdom
has straight lines.

Two sides,
two yous
one heart
shaded in dark blues.

It’s so obvious
to those who care.
Your soul’s in need
of desperate repair.

Tired eyes,
silent cries
you are
dead inside.

(Why don’t you change?)

(How do I fix you?)

(I shouldn’t have to fix you.)

When
will
you
realize?

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©2020 Jai Lynn

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Snapshot 7/31/20 // “The Cicadas Are Singing & So Is Taylor Swift”

Currently listening:Homecoming Queen?” – Kelsea Ballerini & THE ENTIRE ALBUM OF FOLKLORE BY TAYLOR SWIFT (such a mood)
Currently watching: The Bold Type
Currently playing: Animal Crossing: New Horizons
Currently reading: American Gods by Neil Gaimon

Is it weird that I think that the music of cicadas in the summertime is one of the most beautiful sounds to listen to in the world? Because I really do, and honestly it is one of the things keeping me grounded in these high flying times.

Summer is and has always been my safe place. I would much rather be hot than cold. I would much rather have more daylight than more night. I would much rather be licking mint ice cream off my lips than hot cocoa from my chin. That’s not to say I don’t love the cold, or the night or hot cocoa. I do. I really do. But summer has always been special to me. In summer, I have no worries… usually.

This summer is different. It looks like summer, feels hot like summer, and sounds like summer with the cicadas outside but as we all know everything is different. Part of me, which I never thought I would actually feel in my entire life, wants summer to end and the fall to come and by doing that hopefully bring an end to this pandemic. The rest of me though is struggling to stay in the moment and appreciate life for what it is right now. Summer… my favorite season…

So that’s where I’m at.

July Goals:

  1. Continue researching, world building, prewriting, plotting, and outlining my WIP! Check, yes.
  2. Become more interactive on social media! Check. I might have been a little less interactive this month but I was still ON social media so this is a win.
  3. Continue making submissions with my writing! Check! I was actually asked to submit something this month by Radiate Literary, which is a super cool online literary journal promoting young voices. (If you want to check out the poem I wrote here’s the link……. #kthanksbye #awkwardselfpromo).
  4. Continue to do yoga every morning! Checkity-check. Check.

August (the month which might be when my birthday is…) Goals:

  1. Continue researching, world building, prewriting, plotting, and outlining my WIP! I actually started writing the first draft of my WIP of 2020 this month. (I KNOW.) I didn’t even finish world building or outlining or my original intention of planning… BUT the story called to me. So, I started writing.
  2. Become more interactive on social media! My handle is @jaiiiilynn4 for both Insta and Twitter so let’s connect! I’m keeping this goal on here because I definitely need to do better. Even though I still checked them somewhat I have to be more proactive. I’m trying. I promise.
  3. Continue making submissions with my writing! Trying to make this one a habit. I need better time management skills though I feel. This is the goal that honestly falls to the wayside the most.
  4. Be nicer to myself. This one sounds easy but honestly, it might be the hardest goal on this list. I have a tendency to beat myself up pretty badly when I can’t do something I planned to do. I am also the type who constantly assigns blame to myself for things I in no way have any control over. So, this month (my birthday month which is fitting!) I am going to try being kinder to myself and indulge in some self care.

What I Read:

He’s Just Not That Into You: The No-Excuses Truth to Understanding Guys by Greg Behrendt and Liz Tuccillo. This was so eye opening to read… and brutally honest. This books is meant to give you a major reality check when it comes to dating and guys, and let me tell you it doesn’t disappoint. You will feel a bit naive and, dare I say, stupid after reading it but!!! Not to say also full of hope. With just as many red flags it points out it also uplifts you equally as much. Every chapter ends on a positive note and tells you just how much you are worth finding a good guy, one who is not afraid to show up and be there for you. You’re fabulous, amazing, smart and funny. WE ARE!!!! And we deserve someone who appreciates all of that and doesn’t take us for granted.

What I’ll Be Writing:

  • Poetry- posted every Wednesday
  • Living Life vignettes- posted first Friday of the month
  • Writing Is Hard|WIP Writing Update- posted in the middle of the month
  • Snapshot! monthly recap- posted the last day of every month
  • Announcements- posted as needed

All of my fiction writings are independent of each other and stand alone so no need to read any of the previous work to understand. If you want more information about any of the above, you can check out the About page on my site or just click here.

(Omg look at this gif! It’s so cute!! {not really relevant but… w/e!})

July Round Up of Posts from Wonderful People:

Each of these posts touched my heart and I just wanted to share them with you all in the chance that they might touch your heart too. Times are tough and life is short. Any bit of happiness helps ❤

My Round Up of July Posts:

Hey, hey, hey… have you guys heard Taylor’s new album? Like for real Folklore is my life right now. And forevermore…. it’s too real and raw and I’m drowning and swimming and, like, hiding in the woods in a witch hut surrounded by magic and mystery and sadness and hope with ladybugs flying all around me all at the same time…

What are you listening to?

Till next time,

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“Where Is the Eye?”

I thought
I could handle
it
when I wished
for you.

I just
wanted a friend.
Someone
to be around.
Someone
to hold onto.

It didn’t matter
if you liked
me back.
I just thought
being near you
would be enough.

And it was…
for a bit.

Who knew
feelings
of a drizzle
could grow
into the rain
of a storm
that would spin
and spin
and pour
and pour
until I realized
all my thoughts
were drenched with
you.

I was naive.

My heart
can’t handle
this hurricane.

And you
have no idea
that I’m drowning.

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©2020 Jai Lynn

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Flash Fiction- “Another Few Seconds”

When this all first started, they said there would be no waiting.

Cracking my knuckles only kills a few seconds so it’s not long before my mind is back on the never ending line in front of me. At least we are all spread far enough apart that I could stretch my arms so far in front of me and still not touch the man with his bowler hat, or kick out my leg enough to never reach the woman and her daughter arguing at my back.

They said it wouldn’t be as bad as this.

Someone coughs and I can’t help it… but I flinch. I’m not the only one either. Between my rumbling stomach, scrunched shoulders, and painful headache I feel like I made a mistake coming. Maybe I could have gone another night without dinner.

They said that by now this would all be over.

In better times, I would have been knee deep in tips from slinging hot burgers and greasy fries. I would have been spending my mornings running on the beach and my nights banging shoulders with my friends. My anxiety wouldn’t be strung as tight as bow, my bills wouldn’t be weighing down my shoulders, and the news wouldn’t be hammering me hour by hour with the bleakness of it all. (Why didn’t we listen? Why didn’t we realize sooner? Are we all that selfish? Throwing a party at what cost? A few thousand lives…) I shift my weight to my other leg, not because I needed to but just because I needed something, anything, to distract me. If only for another few seconds.

This summer was supposed to be the best one yet. Who would have thought it would have been the saddest? The one to ruin every other summer… in our new reality.

Everything happens for a reason. I’ll tell it to myself over and over. Until I believe it. Another distraction to make the time seem less still. Another few seconds to pass by.

Photo by Edwin Hooper on Unsplash

©2020 Jai Lynn

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Announcement! Radiate Literary Publication

Hey guys!! Just a quick update. Radiate Literary, an online literary journal focusing on promoting young voices, asked me to submit a poem for their site and it went live today!

Here’s the link to check it out: “Song of the Violin”

I wrote the first draft of this piece years ago but I recently came across it and revamped it. It plays with how music echos the moments of our life. If you have some time, give it a look!

Till next time,

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The Awesome Blogger Award!

I’m sending much love your way Sophie for nominating me for this award!! If you don’t follow Sophie @ Sophie’s Corner, I urge you to do so RIGHT NOW. She is an amazing writer and a wonderful friend to me here in the blogging community!

Rules

  • Thank the blogger who nominated you
  • Tag this post with #AwesomeBloggerAward
  • Answer all the questions given to you
  • Nominate some people
  • Write 10 questions for them to answer

Sophie’s Questions for Me!

  1. What are your favorite books of 2020 so far?

I’m reading American Gods right now for the first time and I love it so much that I’m savoring it slowly. It’s like a fine wine and it needs to be taken in sips, lol. I also really loved my re-read of The Great Gatsby that was my first read of the year. Those are the two that jump to the front of my mind off the bat.

2. Where do you write your blog?

Well…. everywhere. I write at work if it’s a busy day but usually somewhere in the sanctity of my home. At my desk or in the living room or in the kitchen. When this pandemic is over though I’m definitely going to try swinging by a coffee shop or the library to mix it up a little!

3. Which type of blog post do you like reading the most?

I love reading poetry. Give me poetry any day and every day. It feeds my soul well.

4. Which type of blog post do you like writing the most?

Haha! Well, poetry because it’s short and sweet and/or packs a punch right to your heart.

5. What book format do you like the most? (e.g. physical book, eBook, audiobook?)

PHYSICAL BOOKS ALL THE WAY! My eyes are so sensitive and I already spend so much time at a computer so when I want to relax I need to feel the pages in my hands, breathe in that book scent and give my eyes a well deserved rest.

6. If you could travel to one place in the world, where would you travel to?

I want to go to London. I’ve always wanted to go there and right now it feels so far away and so out of reach. Literally and metaphorically.

7. Favorite dessert?

Ice creammmmmmm.

8. If you are stranded on an island, and you can choose to keep either your cellphone or a lifetime supply of books, which would you choose? ( Clarification: Your phone has internet and cell reception but you cannot use it to get yourself off the island.)

Lifetime supply of books. (But also I wish I could have the phone to to call my family and friends…. this one is hard….)

9. Which book do you remember most vividly?

Clockwork Angel because I have read that book WAY too many times, and it has given me dramatically skewed interpretations of men.

10. Would you rather eat good food or wear fashionable clothing?

Good food all the wayyyyyyy.

My Nominations

Since I’ve been doing a lot of nominations recently I’ll leave this up to anyone who reads this post and wants to participate!

My Questions

  1. If you could time travel what period would you travel to?
  2. What song would you not mind playing on repeat for the rest of your life?
  3. What is your favorite musical?
  4. Have you ever eaten a ghost pepper, and would you want to?
  5. Are there some things in life you want but KNOW for a fact you will never get them?
  6. Do you ever feel like life isn’t real sometimes and that we are all dreaming or trapped in a video game? #Meta
  7. Do you believe in love at first sight?
  8. Which Disney princess do you relate to the most?
  9. What is your favorite thing about summer?
  10. If you could meet any athlete who would you pick?

Thanks for reading everyone! What are your answers to the questions I was asked? Let me know! Now I’m heading outside to go enjoy the summer sun!

Till next time,

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