“The Devil On My Shoulder”

I know
who I
am.

(thoughts
of you
always
in my head…)

I know
exactly
how to
destroy
myself.

(i see us
on repeat
as i dream
through the day…)

You
did not do
anything
wrong.

I
will take
total
fault.

(for the
feelings
are mine
alone…)

I
am
destroyed.

I
am
also
my destroyer.

(….)

I promise
I’ll disappear
and you will
never
see me again.

(i may be the devil
but i am the angel too.)

I
will save
you
from me.

(goodbye, my love)

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“Imagination”

It happens
when we look
each other
in the eyes.

I see stars,
a cup
with two straws,
a pair of rings
perfectly matched.

It happens
when our hands
draw
together.

I feel the heat
from your skin
and shiver
from the cold
in mine.

It happens
when we are
so close
but not quite
chest to chest.

You lean down
while I
rise up
on the balls
of my feet.
We are not
even
touching.

But it feels
like we are.

My head
is a beautiful
home for us.

But …
be honest,
please,
what
do
you
see?

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“Dirge”

A lonely man
in his dark, dark house
sat down in gloom
the room as quiet as a mouse.

Never was there
one as lonely as he.
His dear young bride
left in the dirt for eternity.

As she rots below
he decays above.
Both dead and alive
hearts broken with love.

The keys of the piano
drenched in black and white
beckoned to him
in threadbare light.

One finger pressed
the middle key,
a beacon of sound
in a dark stormy sea.

Two fingers, then three
as the notes fell from he
rushing and swelling
all emotion ran free.

Deep beneath the earth
she heard the call like a bell.
Her joints began to jump
and breath from her lungs fell.

The man pressed and he played
till his fingers went numb
only stopping when someone
to the door had come.

He rose from his seat
and deep in a daze
wandered through the house
as if trapped in a maze.

The door creaked open
by itself as he reached the hall,
he dearly beloved
there standing skeletal and tall.

His eyes widened in surprise
and he fell to his knees
she would come whenever he played
those black and white keys.

Together they stayed
in this dirge-like way
until the man’s fingers stopped
on his own dying day.

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“Ghosting Me”

The water is still
in the fountain
at my knee.
I toss a penny in
and there’s two faces
in the water to see.

Strolling on the walk,
my shadow long
as the sun sets low.
I reach out
at empty air
and don’t want to let go.

A table for two
but there is only
one plate set.
I try to tell the waitress
there’s two
for this bill’s debt.

Ice cream in the park
as the night
hits slow.
One cone to share
weaving the crowd
we walk toe to toe.

Laughter and words
can’t help
but slip from my lips.
You catch the vanilla
as you move your hand
from my hips.

Staring ensues
from strangers
who don’t see.
For some reason
they don’t know you
are standing next to me.

Midnight comes
as fast as summer
slips away.
But between us
there is still
so much to say.

“I’ll always be
there, I promise.”
your smile starts to sway.
And then
you disappear
as soon as night turns to day.

I’m really alone,
and there is no one
to stare.
I’m not crazy
my boyfriend’s just a ghost
I swear.

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“Wildfire”

“I’ll be right back.”
you said.

I hadn’t seen you
almost all day.

(like you were avoiding me…)

Yesterday
I had been
your world.

(did you know I had something to tell you,
something I needed you to know…)

I had to talk to you
even if just
for one
minute.

(did you mean to leave me behind?)

They say
if they want you
you will know.

(did I misread the signs?)

I was wrong,
I guess.

(I just saw what I wanted to see…)

But you
could have been
upfront.

Why
did
you
lie?

(“I’ll be right back.”)

Baby, I’m not
a back burner
kind of girl.

(“I’ll be right back.”)

I’m the fire
in the woods
that will
burn
the
world
down.

You’ll come back,
and I won’t be here.
But every
charred sight
you see,
every
ash
left behind
will remind
you
of
me.

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“Heartbreak Boy”

Shutters closed,
floors bare,
dark house,
your kingdom of despair.

Halogen lights
watermelon rinds
your real kingdom
has straight lines.

Two sides,
two yous
one heart
shaded in dark blues.

It’s so obvious
to those who care.
Your soul’s in need
of desperate repair.

Tired eyes,
silent cries
you are
dead inside.

(Why don’t you change?)

(How do I fix you?)

(I shouldn’t have to fix you.)

When
will
you
realize?

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“Where Is the Eye?”

I thought
I could handle
it
when I wished
for you.

I just
wanted a friend.
Someone
to be around.
Someone
to hold onto.

It didn’t matter
if you liked
me back.
I just thought
being near you
would be enough.

And it was…
for a bit.

Who knew
feelings
of a drizzle
could grow
into the rain
of a storm
that would spin
and spin
and pour
and pour
until I realized
all my thoughts
were drenched with
you.

I was naive.

My heart
can’t handle
this hurricane.

And you
have no idea
that I’m drowning.

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“A Moment”

I don’t believe
in coincidences.

There was no
before
and definitely no
after.

All that
is clear
is this.

From across
the room
we locked eyes.

In two breaths
we were
together
toe to toe
and
eye
to eye.

On the tips
of my sneakers,
and you
leaning down
I whispered
the question
to you.

I swear
you were
dazed
and I knew
I was
mesmerized.

When you
answered
the world
stopped.

But then reality
struck
and the world
of onlookers
came back
into focus.

I darted away
and you
retreated too.

All the rest
was a blur
but I knew
you felt it
too.

It was a moment.

Just one moment.

If
there is
nothing else
at least
we have that for

some things
are just
meant
to
be.

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